bad habit

I woke up with the same cloud
in my head as when I passed out.
not being able to detach of this
painful state of mind, has
been going on too long.
the control over my mind was
turned over without even my noticing.
it is now a habit.
such manipulative cunning is subject
to adoration in my corrupted mind.
because it tickles my senses [...]

tired now

before,
I could sleep
before the deja vu,
when I pass out
after trying to sleep,
after waking up tired and
after dreaming a day
I hunger for sleep during night.
but that was before.
now I pass out.

ZEITGEIST

I’m not paranoid about authorities controlling me or extremely anti-religious in a violent way, but the stuff going on in this world should end. By stuff I mean war between religions and war motivated by religion. Other wars should seize too. Simply because they consume a high-value resource on this planet, namely people.
There is no [...]

please be human to your fellow human

why do I choose to be this
pedantic peevish righteous sack of,
I mean among all these fine specimen
of this kind, and I mean nearly everyone.
why do I try to rise above
human?
the shame would probably kill you if I
shared why you trigger so much hate.
and I can’t let you go that easily.
your simple greed and lust and [...]

get a second opinion

I often think,
that I’m crazy,
somehow deranged.
You know, how it’s true, if some
five people call you
an idiot,
all in one day?
Well, no one tells me.
They see a decent person.
One girl even said once
world would be better,
had everyone thought like me.
No.
I’ve convinced myself.
- – -
dedicated to Charles Bukowski
he is truly a fresh voice among rotten tomatoes
I want to [...]